You know its too much, when your 2 year old niece is reading Glamor. I can't handle this. haha

Wow, there's such a thing as "you're online and i want to talk to you, BUT i'm not saying hi first" and  "when i was younger, i put my face close to the fan so i can hear my robot voice" group in fb. When i saw that i was like WTF!? hahahahahahaha, then i started to ROFL. that was like some serious crap.

I have flu. I hate flu. hate it.

 

Figured that i have been burdening my entries on "ME" i totally forgot what its like not to think anymore. heh. So, my plan is now to just forget about whatever that it was that bothered me, and go on, until i get a call. . or not.

So yeah. How has my week been so far? Hmm, I have been putting off my time at starbucks near my house, because now the internet is back on. So, dang it cause I don't get to see that cute guy that me and sara saw, and then, i don't get the "wish" stamp AND, i don't get my dose of a nyummy frappucino. : ( I have been lazing around the house much, reading new moon. Why? cause its there, in my sister's room. she borrowed it from a friend, and hey, i thought "why not give this book another chance?" cause the first time i read it, let me recall, it was either in F4 or F5, yeah. .. the whole "edward" mania came to class. so, new moon was a bore, compared to twilight. i seriously felt like death reading the book, cause it only came to life when edward got back to the scene. so yeah. it sucked. now that i'm reading it again, its not half as bad, cause i totally forgot what happened in the book. So far the book is nice. Haha, how judgemental i am. Though i gotta say that in eclipse, it just got. . weird. Weird over the part where she can't make up her mind on which guy she wants. so yeahh. but otherwise, it was a good book, cause it there was a nice balance to it. still haven't read up on breaking dawn yet.

On thursday, I already made plans with atheera to hit the cinema with her, since its her treat to the movies. YEAY. also, I'm going to sungai wang! hahaha, how awesome. now, this would be the 2nd time i step foot in that place. huahuahua. pathetic, i know.

The other day, I called pizza hut to obviously order a pizza la kan. So, i dialled the num and then gosh, I swear the girl on the other end of line, i could "literally" kill her. One, not only that she was what? deaf i think, and she was rude too. like what the eff? now i know why i stuck to dominos for pizza delivery. it was my first time ordering thry pizza hut and then the girl asked for my number. gave it. what's bad was the she kept on asking me to repeat the number -.-" then, she ask me "can i have your number" WTF? "i just gave it to you." "oh, sorry. your address" like just short and blunt. wtf. when i gave her my address it got even worst, cause she kept on asking me if i lived in a condo, to which i answered yes, yes, and yes. then she was silence and then she said "oh, you live in kelana jaya right ma'am? sorry, but right now we dont have enough rider, so we can't send the pizza to you" WTF?WTF? "so, you cant send the pizza?" "yes" "uh, okay, bye"

i didn't feel like putting effort into the conversation cause it was tiring and it was eating up my credit. i got so annoyed with pizza hut that everything about it made me sick.

So, it was the day of the interview. Hmm. I didn't bring any resume or whatsoever. Can you freaking believe that? I can't believe it myself. What was I thinking? I tell you what was i thinking. I thought that it was just gonna be a normal interview instead of looking at it as a real job application. -_-" I was filling out the form and when I was done the HR exec asked me if i brought my resume. I looked at her in a blank stare and said " no, actually, i didn't " yeah. you can smack me for saying that. But she didn't haunt me, telling me that i needed to hand it in or whatever.. .maybe because i have been a trainee there before? ntah la, but im heading there again, on monday to hand in my cv, just incase. I bet if i wasn't an ex trainee there, I would have to get home scrambling to do my cv and get back to them. I mean, yeahh. wtfish. it was like the start of a big huge flop to my "future(??)" career. gosh. i cannot believe myself.

I went on with the interview anyways. The manager asked me questions like tell me about yourself . .why i want to do this and yada. and then the really serious part came. she asked me how much is my level of commitment to the job. as in, am i gonna just work here for 6 months and then decide to leave because i want to study? she was expecting that i'd be in the job for real. in the long run. my stomach was hurling. it was sending "what the heck are you doing" signals to my brain. this is wasn't what i planned for. i plan a year, and then i study. so i just told her, that i'd do it of a year, no doubt about that, because its simply impossible to just work here for 6 months or less. .and after a year, we'll see how it goes, if everything is good, then i might continue on. .

then she asked me would i stay with the hotel if they decided to send me to do my diploma? the answer to that was "duh" la kan. but "duh" came with a price. ofcourse i am contract bound. i might have to work under contract with the hotel for 2 years, as a method of payment, due to the "sponsorship". mhmm. i was unconciously counting in my head. wow, this is gonna take longer than a year if i do really take on this. again, i felt like walking out and then apologize to her, and tell her "sorry, i don't know what was i thinking" but then again, common sense made me stayed there a little longer.

then she asked me how well do i cope with stress. fantastic question isn't it? it struck to me, the first 2 minutes in that she was interviewing me that this was the real thing. i told her that i deal with stress fairly well, as long as i can handle it, i'll do my best, but the moment i cannot handle it anymore, i'd pass it on, because i don't want to say or do things that i'll regret later.
 
then she asked me; about being the youngest, how am i gonna cope in a working environment, knowing my age of just 18. I told her that I was never a pampered child at home. during my 3 months here i do get the hang of how working lifestyle is like. i told her that there are ofcourse some things i am not used to (like hotel rumours and fucked up colleagues) but i learned that that's the way how it is and you have to excuse if sometimes, if i am being childish and i cant help it *chuckles*

she asked a couple of other things that was just as hard hitting as the rest, but i forgot what it was now. my mind's all fuzzy inside. the main concern is that "will i leave after a very short term of work" she told me that she trusted my word on what i said earlier on. and then there's the other concern..is my date of when i can start working. i put on january, because ONE, i need a break. c'mon! TWO i might go visit my sis and her kids THREE my family are moving out to shah alam in december. so logically, takkan la i want to be busy with work while they are busy moving out? i told that to her. and then that i'd try the very most possible way for me to start in december because she said there would be discovery programmes in december and that she can teach us all in december as well. so far, my solution to this is that, ok, fine, i'll come to work in december, but not really full time. i'll come during discovery and when she wants to teach  . .  and maybe take an unpaid leave in january, and maybe see my sister, then. NTAHLAHH.

then i had the interview with HR. supposedly HR goes first, THENNN the manager, but then it was a little busy, so i got over and done with the mgr first. So the interview with HR was very direct. My education, family background, my strengths and weaknesses. and my weakness, i mentioned to her was that i am short fused. uh huh. and she wrote down "gets irritated, depends on mood" OMGGGG. THAT IS SOOOO NOT WHAT I WANTED INSIDE MY . . . THINGY JOB THINGY. I MEAN. WTF. WTF. this actually happens???!!! omg, what the f*** as i stare at the paper and her scribbled handwritings, i gulped in the fact that i may not get this job. which is great. because half of me says "please let me dont get the job" and the other was vice versa.

my charmed wasnt working that day i guess. it was overshadowed by gloomy stomach rumblings. bah.

how much worst can this get? much worst. i found out through my friend, that this is only the beginning. I might have to have an interview with the front office mgr and the rooms division mgr, whom i cursed a few weeks back for being such a complaining ass.

sounds interesting? i want to commit suicide now.